I have an awesome boyfriend, a job and a place to live. I don’t pay billions in rent, I have my own bathroom and bedroom I have it pretty good. I have my own car. Yet, I am not happy. I feel as if something is missing from my life I feel a little lost, a little less than an adult which I am. That is the things, I am an adult but I don’t feel as if I am one. I guess I should say that I think there is a difference between being an adult, and then being an independent adult. I hate living pay check to pay check with little security. I don’t have any money in my savings; I have no way of supporting myself if something should happen to my grandpa without his help. I need to come up with a plan and budget and stick to it. I can’t keep just spending like I do, I need to have some kind of plan which will allow me to save money and have a decent amount by the end of the year. I think if I could accomplish that, I can start to accomplish my other dreams. I guess what I am trying to say is that I am ready to be more self-sufficient. I don’t want to keep living off my grandpa I want him to be able to vacation and have a nice rest of his retirement. I do not make enough money right now, to feasibly live on my own. I figured it out, and if I worked 32 hour weeks I would need to make about 13.00 an hour to live on my own. I make.. 10.90 right now. So my first goal is to make that much with my job, I am going to start trying harder, stop fooling around as much. If that doesn’t help at my current job then I will as time goes by with this one and I gain more experience try to find something else that will help me meet my goal. I am going to work out every paycheck, and come up with money for my bills and grandpa and then set aside a little for gas and food. The rest needs to be put away. I can allow myself a little for fun. But I mean really? At least until my birthday I have no other fun things I need other than possibly fair but I have until May for that and I might just do something else with my boyfriend instead of that this year. Honestly I am not over being hurt by chris to go running back to fair, I like my boyfriend but I am not strong enough to see that I really liked that boy. So I guess I have some goals, I want to start reading again. I am going to get dressed and get to work early so I can pick up a book or two before. I need to organize my homework a little better for next week; I need to do stuff in life. I want to make sure I do at least one chore a day. I am still sick, so I need to kick this sickness before I can completely be good to go. But there are still things I can do in the mean time.